so i have started working on stephan’s scrapbook. got some tape, so i got a few pictures down. now we need to replace the ink cartridges in our printer so i can print out some extras and i’ll be able to finish pages. tomorrow we plan to vaccuum since between cat hair and other misc mess, we have floors that are quite in need of cleaning. i should also give the bathroom a once over too, but who really cares about that.
the big drama in my life right now has nothing to do with the house. stephan is making me crazy, well it’s more me making myself crazy because of how frustrated i get about things. he’s not sleeping well, sometimes doesn’t seem to be eating well and that combo isn’t great for my stress level about being a good mommie.
to get him to sleep often i have to wrap him up tight, hold him close, and wait through his activity till he finally relaxes and then instantly falls asleep. if i just put him in his crib he gets up and starts playing. no idea what happened, we used to just wrap him up, put him in his crib, and walk out of the room and he’d fall right to sleep. then about three weeks ago everything changed. naptime, bedtime, even soemtimes in the middle of the night he’ll cry if we wrap him up and lay him down and leave the room. i just wish i understood him and knew how to make things better, knew if something was wrong. he’s often rubbing his eyes during the day but sleeps very little and is SO active during the day! you’d think he had to be tired!!
and then there’s the food drama. every time i try and add some chunky-ness to his food he’ll try a few bites and then refuse the food completely, even when i switch to something completely pureed like yogurt, which used to be his favorite thing … but cubed cheese, he’ll eat like that none other. it’s just such a mystery what he needs and what he likes and how to make sure he gets the nutrition he needs.
hopefully when we head to the dr. in a couple weeks for his well-baby visit i can get some insight. i know he’s close to walking and has been working on several teeth which can’t make things any less complicated but i’m pretty exhausted and worn out and of course want simple, instant solutions that i know don’t exist but really want them anyway.
don’t misinterpret this, i LOVE my son, he means the world to me. i just want more than one good night of sleep a week (and by “good” i mean one 5-6 hour stretch without having to wake up and put stephan back down). i find myself longing for the days when he would sleep for 7-8 hours at night but that was six months ago and we haven’t had many nights like that since, i could probably count them on one hand! i keep hoping things will change but get discouraged when he continuously wakes up several times a night.
tommorow we might try looking for some books at the library, when i don’t know … i read. hopefully that will help but i’m not a fan of the cry-it-out advice that is usually provided. i’ve tried that and his crying gets more and more loud and intense and he doesn’t stop till you sit with him till he falls asleep. maybe i need the baby whisperer to come and get things on track, is there such a thing?
well, i’m going to see if stephan’ll eat something and then maybe, just maybe, go to bed without a ton of fuss.